Deep Down

What have you been doing lately? Your life could use improving greatly. I just wanted to know what's going on, but everything that goes is going wrong. Pardon me while I throw up. I guess some people never grow up. What happened to the salvation you claimed? It breaks my heart to see how much you've changed.

Well, sometimes I just hope to reach out to you but the answer from you is neither hurting nor agonizing. The promises would rather fade away, and slowly it became a far away dream. The confusion of language and non verbal cues, once again ache my sorrowful heart. I had realized that it was only a deception - an image, right there. But even that, inside the deep bush, my body longed for the sweet fruit inside.

Where are you now?

Unspoken, unheard, unseen, just an illusion. Flowing towards the other side of time, becoming like a lost child, an unforgiven wish. Only voice, only fingers, only the approaching warmth. Unspoken thoughts get tainted by the shredded night wind.

Remembering all the blissful memories - covering my head under the rain, stop my tears from falling, shelter and embrace for each other, hold each other tight whenever there’s dilemma, ease each other to set the troubles free, stand for each other, get green-eyed for the proper reasons, your jolly laughter, make sure each other is living happily, TRUST …

Just to be close to you. Just to be with you at the same time
Returning distant memories, although sorrowful, they are making me warm
If the guidance within these etched symbols ever fails again, the moment we meet again shall bypass the memories of a thousand years.

Everything is an illusion, they're gone as soon as they appear.
When will our peaceful come as the silent breeze wraps around us all the time.
Look, I am still wishing for the same things as then.

One by one, the seasons pass but after, how many of my thoughts reached you?
I can't even bring back the normal everydays. All those days and all those moments feel so dear

Once again, where are you now? How have you been lately? Can you hear me?

p/s: True love is hard to find but the only way to find it is to break hearts not stab it in the back. Breaking hearts hurt but could not be a crime because it is for your happy ending

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