My life... Miserable? No?

Urghhh.. Have you ever get frustrated with your life? As in...

You feel your life is so lifeless.
You get frustrated on Saturday night.
You of course want to party, but...
You don't have the friend to do it with you, so...
You end up staying at home blasting music and drinking couple glasses of Wine, and...
You are still frustrated because people just doesn't how to reply your msg, but of course...
You can't blame them because you're nobody.

Urghhhhh. I hate that I am nobody. Why am I nobody?
I know it's a bit too "so hai" to say that I hate to be nobody, but sometimes you just hope that you're somebody.

Well I guessed I am just nobody...
Well I guessed I just don't have the right friend...
Well I guessed I miss Jenette.
Well I guessed I really really really miss Jenette.
Well I guessed I have to just be nobody.

Okay Okay.... I am sorry! I just need one night to release myself and party hard.

YES I JUST NEED ONE NIGHT TO PARTY HARD.

Freedom

Don't ask me why I give up easily.
I don't have my freedom.
I like my freedom.
But where's my freedom.
The reason I came out and stay on my own is because I wanted to be freedom.
Everything to be control by myself.
Only me who can control my daily life.
Yet for you, it's me giving up.
Can't you see I am a person who like to have my own freedom?

Yes I know I make it hard for you.
But I just can't control it.
I really need my freedom back.

It's not over.

My tears run down like razorblades and no, I'm not the one to blame: it's you or is it me?

And all the words we never say come out and now we are all ashamed. And there is no sense

In playing games, when you've done all you can do.

But now it's over, it's over. Why is it over? We had the chance to make it. Now it's over,

It's over. It can't be over. I wish that I could take it back, but it's over.

I lose myself in all these fights; I lose my sense of wrong and right. I cry, I cry. I'm

Shaking from the pain that's in my head. I just want to crawl into my bed and throw away

The life I'd led. But I won't let it die. But I won't let it die.

But it's over, it's over. Why is it over? We had the chance to make it. Now it's over,

It's over. It can't be over. I wish that I could take it back.

[x2]

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart.

Don't say this wont last forever.

You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart.

Don't tell me that we will never be together.

We could be over

And over, we could be forever.

It's not over. It's not over, it's never over, unless you let it take you, it's not over,

It's not over, it's not over, unless you let it break you. It's not over.

Secondhand Serenade - it's not over

或许累了吧~ 所以才讲不下去。

Happy Thaipusam and Happy Birthday to one of my Bestie!

Happy Thaipusam to all who are celebrating and Happy long weekend to all Malaysians!

Although it's a long weekend but me and B won't be leaving town for holiday, instead we are staying in town and celebrating our bestie KAZAF SHINATARI's 25th Birthday! She's gonna leave KL and will be going back to KK for good. Therefore, she is having a BBQ Pool Party at her place and I ain't missing that yo!

**Note: She's not Japanese nor Korean, and that's not her real name. I am forbid to mention her real name and her real name is actually very girly! Woohoooo

Anyway, Happy Blessed 25th Birthday Bestie! I wish you all the best whatever things that you're gonna do and please love me forever! hahahahah

This was back in 2010! I feel so old!

"Be kind to one another" - Ellen Degenerous